Damn You, Kraft Mac and Cheese

Today food is talking to me.......Kraft Mac and Cheese especially. I hate days when food calls to me from the refridgerator, and I hate that as I am feeding my kids I am trying bites to "make sure it tastes good/Make sure it's not too hot".... It's all lies, it tastes fine and is not too hot, it's just speaking to me.

Well, Hello!

I cannot even begin to explain how out of shape I am! I did my first life change exercise today, and I couldn't even keep up with the 20 minute abs workout video. But I know most hard things in life require small steps, so mine are minute. I do know that I feel good, and that I am on the right path, I just hope the path stays as clear as it seems today.

Oh My Heck!

I cannot believe that my last post was about a year ago! I have been through one of the most challenging years of my life, and now once again I am back on the drawing board for weight loss. In the last year I tried HCG, without lasting loss. I also tried started Weight Watchers at the beginning of the year, and dabbled meaninglessly for the last few months. However, last Monday I had an epiphany. I was going to take small steps toward weight loss and make small lasting changes every month, which will slowly but surely get me to my goal of health. So last week I decided to eat my 8 fruits and veggies every day. I have started this by making sure that before I eat anything else I have had a fruit and a vegetable. The change has been incredible. I feel so much better, I have not had the energy lulls throughout my long days as a Restaurant Manager. I cannot believe that after only a few days I have noticed such amazing results. I started last week at 273.5 lbs, and will be weighing in every Monday to track my successes, and journal this process.

Day 3

So at the beginning of Day 3 I was excited to see the scale at 270.0 lbs, which meant that my day of gorging really worked! I packed on 4 lbs.....I still have the hCG headache, but it isn's as bad as it was yesterday. I do have concern about not being able to use lotion for the next 20 days......I love my Aveda Hand Relief. But I guess I will sacrifice my hand lotion for overall health. I am feeling very confident today, in myself and my ability to get the weight off, but I know that 95 lbs is a long road to haul, and I am going to need the support of family and friends to really make this happen.
I do have one thought for the day: Why do cute workout clothes not come in my size (20). I want to get started back at the gym and went to find myself a cute new gym outfit to help me stay motivated. But, alas, nothing in my size besides t-shirts and sweatpants that I am already far too accustomed to. If I were an athletic clothing designer I would think about the untapped resource of people who are fat, but want to look cute when they go to the gym or want to do something active, possible career move?

Maiden Post.....

Hi Blog Readers!
I don't know if anyone will read this blog, but it is more for me than anything else. I know that more people than ever are struggling to lose weight, and I am one of them. I have not always been chunky, it is a rather recent development (5 years), but I can already tell that it is not in my best interest to remain this way (i.e. sore ankles and knees). So I have made a contract with myself, God, and anyone else who wants to follow my voyage that it is time to reclaim the skinny me again.
Although I am embarassed about how big I am, and the reasons that I allowed myself to become this way, I have decided that honesty is always the best policy, and this blog will contain all the brutal honesty that I can muster. So today I have started the process of reclaiming my health by starting the hCG diet, which claims to have people losing a lb/day...... We'll see.

I will include the customary stats in each blog that I post; current weight, total weight lost, and lbs. to my goal (and hopefully a picture most days). So, for today that would appear: 266.0 Lbs/0 Lbs/91 to go
Now, some people may comment that 175 lbs may not be healthy for my 5'8" frame, but I am trying to weigh the same amount that I weighed when I was in college and met my wonderful husband, I think that I can let myself be happy and healthy at that weight.

So for those of you who don't know, the first 2 days of the hCG diet consist of eating large quantities of fat to help activate the hormone in my daily injection, so today has been thrilling. Donuts and cappucino for breakfast, McD's for lunch, and some rotten meal in on the plan for dinner, with chocolate snacks throughout the day :) . I have the customary hCG headache, and have discovered that my upper thigh was not the best place to inject (it stung). I have injected my bum on day 1, and didn't even feel that one.......so I guess more in the bum for me.

Day 2 has been quite a success, lets see what day 3 brings when I am down to a 500 calorie diet and have to banish my addiction: Diet Cherry Coke.